3am thoughts

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maybe the reason i’m asking more questions is because everything keeps surging forward instead of halting and giving me answers

you’ve taken your liberties, and i’ve allowed them

you’ve taken my kisses and i’m left with imprints of them

you’ve even taken up the space in what used to be a couch for one

and i’m just left breathless

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because it’s the first time i’ve felt awake again

craving to be by someone else’s side this time of night

maybe because someone tells me he wants to be with me

or it’s because i can’t think straight with how much i miss him

and i’m so scared how these thoughts are so close to swallowing me whole

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crazy how someone can still think of me when he’s drunk

and i’m on the receiving end of those drunk texts people say are full of truth

and i’ve listened to his ramblings and i fall for them every time

now that he’s held my hand and kissed me silly and bid me good night

i am anxious, nervous, terrified and terribly excited for what comes next

my darling, you are my 3am thoughts