mortal

 At this rate, your hands have stopped shaking and your breath has slowed down. 

You’re already replaying what’s happened in your head.

You’ve analysed and over-analysed everything but the time you sit down.

You’ve committed your mortal sin of the month,

You make promises to yourself that end up being broken by you too.

You can only have yourself to blame.

Your try to keep the disgust underneath, but you keep washing your hands. 

You feel like there’s grime on your face, your back and most specially your chest. 

Your heart’s the most affected. Beating rapidly to the beat of erratic drum.

He’s the sin that you should confess every time.

Because frankly, he makes you drink too much wine.

You’re wasting yourself on someone below you.

Someone who can’t even appreciate you.

So take a leap and jump off the cliff.

And pray to God for your forgiveness.

Because sins aren’t permanent, confess and move on.